Tommy Mondello's achievement
Figure out what I am looking for in the next woman I allow to roam within the chambers of my heart!!
I know I already have a goal of "falling in love"... but... I must first figure this out... before our love will ever have a chance to be! I loved my ex-wife for a very long time... and quit frankly... I still do... but my emotions have finally caught up to what my head was already telling me... that it's time to move on!!! LoL... And now... i'm NOT going to stress out in trying to find a new partner... I did that during this whole past year... dating sucks to high hell... but in reality I WASN'T ready to date... and it was just an up and down year... emotionally. I ALWAYS had my shit together... in every way... so being so fucked up and unsure of myself these past couple years has really thrown me off... it's a difficult thing to admit to yourself... that you're NOT always on track!!! That you're alowed to go off the rails once in awhile! Well... I went off the fuckin' rails... I was riding Ozzy's "Crazy Train" for a couple years actually... it absolutely sucked!!!!!! LoL... but now... I am SO close to being ME again... TOMMY!!! I'm just going to enjoy this summer like no other before... and I refuse to "LOOK" for love... but... I will be on the look out for "THAT" feeling... as I make my way from day to day! And I'll know it when I feel it!!! You just never know who... or what... you're going to be attracted to... or why!!! And you know what????? Who gives a FUCK WHY....... The logical side of ME... will now take a back seat to my heart... a back seat to my emotional Being!!!!!!
Life is ALMOST fun again!!! LoL
I now know exactly what I am looking for!!!!!! I so thought that a feeling such as this would be forever lost... but no... I felt it!!! I honestly thought I would never have "THAT" feeling again... I mean... how can you after loving someone for so many years right??? Well... I had a taste of some form of it when I first began dating again last year... The very first woman I was set up with... just happened to have eyes similar to that photo... but there was so much more to her! The feeling didn't happen right away... but the more we communicated... the more I completely fell in love with her... LoL But... that was a connection that was not meant to be! But we are still friends today and are a crutch for one another whenever needed... I still love her... but now in the way that our love was meant to be... as friends!!! But... it was a glimmer of hope that my heart and emotions COULD... feel again!!!! Fast forward to present day... I looked into the eyes of a woman... and I instantly smiled from ear to ear! She wasn't the prettiest woman... as beauty is judged in todays world... BUT... TO ME... she was the most infectious... soft... beautiful woman I have ever seen... AND... her giggle just added to my infatuation! LoL... I INSTANTLY fell in love with who and what she was... BUT... of course she was happily married with two beautiful kids... : ( aren't they ALL.. LoL... but... that didn't matter... I just couldn't stop looking over to her... Christ... I was a stalker... LoL... I just came right out and told her how her "being" made me feel... and told her that I WAS going to flirt with her! But would keep it on "a strictly professional" level... LoL We both had a great big laugh... and really... she DID love it! She even told her husband and he laughed! I just wanted her to know... that in no way was I going to cross any lines between us... but that she... "her being"... gave me the answer that I was searching for!!!! I now had the blueprint... the template... of the next woman I would allow to wander within the chambers of my heart!!! : )
And although it WOULDN'T be her... it WILL be someone that gives me this feeling! Her eyes just happened to be a glistening jet black color... and she just seemed to glow... almost looked phuzzy... like a dream! I know I sound like a big pussy or something... LoL... but I became completely mesmerized EVERYTIME I saw her... My knees even felt weak like you see in the movies... Her eyes were the key though! I just lost myself in them... and it was all over from there... But it was a feeling that I will never forget!!! And it's one I will wait for before I allow anyone to fully hold my heart in their hands!!! The eyes... no particular color... size... shape... they just need to make me want to NEVER look away from them! And when I find this person... and we maybe even hit it off... she WILL be the luckiest woman on the face of this earth!!! I promise her that!! I still can't believe that I "KNOW" what I'm looking for. Some people go through their entire life NOT knowing that... so I feel VERY fortunate right now! Now watch... EVERYTIME I get "THE" feeling... she's gonna be taken already... LOLOLOLOLOLO Man....... what a cruel world huh????? hhahahahahahahaha I am ever closer to once again being myself... tommy!!! And it feels fucking GREAT!
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